Old Things

So I was going through all my old Word documents tonight. 

And I came across all my old stories and poems, and I thought i'd share a few of them with you.

Haha!

They're super lame!

But they're super meaningful to me. 

I started a lot of  them about this time last year, and finished them over the summer.

w\Which has probably been my favorite time, emotionally, in my life. 

Which is weird, because I was so angry all the time. 

But I think I was also closest to God at this time. 

So, don't judge on the quality. 

They're all super rough drafts. 

But it's kind of fun getting to see what was rattling around in my head!

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I’m slipping.

I’m falling.
I’m stumbling down.
As I ponder the intensity of my impact with ground.
Why can’t I stay up?
Why do I fall?
When I hit rock bottom will it hurt like before?
Every time I screw up
Every time I fail.
I can’t climb this mountain.
This hill.
Just keep telling yourself
I’m not good enough
Or strong enough
And it won’t hurt so bad
Won’t hurt when others see you fail.
I’m sinking.
I’m floundering.
Down into the deep.
Gasping and choking the further I sink.
Why can’t float?
Why can’t I swim?
Will someone come to my rescue?
Or am I all alone?
Alone in this world.
All by myself.
Here I am.
Forced to make this venture myself.
Nothing should matter.
Nothing but You.
Only You can save me from myself.
So here I am!
Come to my side.
I need a protector
A Savior
A friend
One who will show me the Way.
The way back to You. 

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Okay, so there I started it while I was really angry with Frederick, and it ended up being something to God. 

Kind cool. 

But it's very poorly written. 

Anyways. 

On to the next one!

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What are you doing chasing something you can't have?

Better yet, something you don't deserve.

Something you don't need.

Why do you let yourself get attached to thing that won't matter ten years from now?

Is this how you want to live your life?

Dependant and alone?

Lost and confused?

Heartbroken, left wandering and wallowing in your own self pity?

What kind of life is that?

One with no purpose is what it is. 

So get up!

Stand strong!

Fight for what you need,

A relationship with your Maker.

The Everlasting Father. 

Abba.

Daddy.

The Alpha and Omega. 

It's not easy --and it may not be cool,

But you won't end up alone. 

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I had a beginning of a story I was going to put on here, buuuuut Microsoft Word hates me, and has expired on my computer. So, I can't copy it... And I'm going to have to retype it and i don't have time right now. 

So I'll post it later!

Sorry!

Bye! :)